I've recently started to think about giving birth again. As i've been unwell throughout the pregnancy I may be required to have an elective c-section but until it's formally agreed and a date set in stone I will prepare myself for a natural delivery. First time round I was in a bubble of ignorant bliss but knowing I may have to endure the most indescribable pain imaginable, is quite honestly freaking me out. Somehow it's like preparing for torture but one that delivers a much awaited for precious gift. It took me a long time to come to terms with the traumatic arrival of William but I'm trying hard to make myself believe this time it may be completely different. I don't deny I can be precious but I'm also the sort of person who doesn't stay down for long and can pick myself up when I need to.
So for now I'm going to concentrate on preparing my little family for our new addition. Having children is undoubtedly a blessing and it's that thought I must try and keep at the forefront of mind. I rifled through my albums and found the first photo ever taken of William. It makes me smile every time I see it and reminds me now of what is to come, for all the sickness it will be so worth it when three becomes four.
|William George 24.09.09 9lbs1oz|